When The Tides Just Keep Turning
May the calm after the storm come soon...
It has been a hot minute since I have had a chance to sit down and write. Two months have nearly gone by without me even having a chance to come on here and give an update with why I have bene so MIA. My deepest apologies friends, and I truly mean it.
The fact that life has not allowed me a brief moment to write or record has been the burden in the back of my mind of many days. Now, I also understand that this is just how life goes, so please do not worry for me. I have not been beating myself up over it. I have been, however thinking a lot about why perhaps there has not been a break in life for me to invest and commit my time to my Substack community. The first thought I have had as to ‘why’, is that I am my own worst enemy. That on top of all the unexpected situations and the 'dis'contented chaos that has been going on, I am just not making the time or putting in the efforts to be more present here. Rather than doing so, I have been distracting myself with other mindless things at the end of an extra long day. And those ‘things’ feel easier to do than to concentrate on writing. The second thought I have had is that perhaps this just is not the season in which I am supposed to be trying to build this community or investing my time and efforts into writing and recording right now. And the final thought I have had, is that I am still supposed to be doing this, but perhaps not to the large scale that I had initially planned to invest in posting and sharing.
The latter is the thought that I have been taking to the Lord most often over the last few weeks. One, because I know the first thought is actually just truth and I have been lacking the discipline to do the work here that I set out and intended to do. Two, because I still feel like tossing in the towel completely is not actually what I am supposed to do. I have no peace with that. So I have been wrestling through my thoughts with the Lord asking him what I should and should not be doing, when finally a couple of days ago I felt peace with an answer to all of the questions that I have had. How grateful and thankful I am, to have a relationship with a living God who is active and present and loves deeply for his children and the burdens of their hearts!
I now know that my initial posting timeline was too heavy of a workload on top of homeschooling and co-running the Homeschool Co-Op with my dear friend Chelsea from Wild Grouse Schoolhouse. Not to mention the daily tasks of homemaking and house keeping. Going forward I will be getting back into doing ‘Heads’ which is my Little Learners Podast, weekly. The ‘Tummies’ weekly recipe drop will also still happen on Friday’s. ‘Hearts’, which are the pieces of writing that come from my heart hoping that they might encourage your heart will now be twice a month. And finally ‘Souls’ which is the Midrash Mommas Podcast will be once a month…FOR NOW! I would love for Midrash Mommas to be more consistent but it has not been easy to find other momma guests who have the time needed to come and record with me, when they all run very busy households as well.
I am going to be trialing this new timeline for posting for a couple of months, November and December. I have prayed that the Lord might show me through this plan whether this is indeed what I have felt called to be doing, or whether it is just a desire of the flesh. If things go well and I stay on track, I am trusting that it is a greenlight to carry on. If things go south once again, and I am burdened by not being consistent in showing up here with my content, then I will give it to the Lord and accept it as a call to step away and have this come to an end. (Hopefully) NOT a forever end, but at least an end until I feel settled enough to return once again, fully knowing and by sensing God’s peace that I am being called back to it.
In the meantime, before I kick things back up to the new full swing in November, I have some exciting things to share over the remaining days in October, so stay tuned! Thank you once again for being here and for supporting me. I truly am grateful for having you here and that you have chosen to receive the content that I share.
In Christ,
Jenna